unimaginable

what if I could wrap my arms around you and finally feel safe. What if I could touch your cheek and not feel as though I was falling through ice. What if I could kiss you and not die immediately. What if we could skip around, free. Feeling the wind in our hair and the dirt underneath our feet. No worries to try and push us down. What if. What if it wasn’t so far away. What if it was so close we could almost touch it. What if it wasn’t impossible. What if we weren’t impossible. We’ll never know. You’ll be there and I’ll be here never fully able to touch you. Never able to reach out and grab you. Never able to love you with my whole heart again. Never able to give you everything i always dreamed of. Never being able to fully let go. I will never let you go. I carry you along in my mind. In the forbidden place I pretend that doesn’t exist. Where the walls slowly start to close in around me. But still I continue to carry you in my mind never allowing you to leave me. Don’t ever leave me.