happy new year? I hope so. What will evolve and unfold throughout these next months. Will the distance between us become inexistent? Will our problems stop lingering over us? Will the holes finally be filled? Will you see me ? Will you allow me to heal? Will you allow us to heal. Will we become stronger together or weaker as the moments pass. Will we make up our mind on us? Will we decide to dive into each other or chose to stay away forever. Will we run in the same direction or fade out as we run apart. Will the pain finally go away? Will I go away? What will become of us. What will happen.
I pray that whatever happens, we both remember where we began. Where it all started and never lose sight of that. I pray it’s all we ever dreamed of. That it can unfold into something beautiful. I’m fearful of it dying and becoming dust. I’m fearful and relieved at the thought of losing you. I’m fearful of becoming alone. Im fearful of losing you completely and see you come running full speed toward me once it’s too late. I’m so fearful. I’m relieved at the thought of not fighting for nothing anymore. Not trying to be everything for you while you look right through me. Of trying to help you grow when you’re trying to kill me. I’m relieved. And I’m fearful.
I pray this year brings joy and growth. However that may look.
alone or by your side I know I will be strong. Not for you but for me.
My heart 