She woke up with a burning sensation being pushed into her ear. She had missed her alarm and that was against the rules. She was ripped from her dreams and plunged into her reality. He was there in her bunk bed with a syringe of scorching water squirting it deep into her ear.
It was time to make him breakfast. Get dressed and get to the kitchen. Making his papaya shake, a piece of apple pie from which her and her sister had made the night before , a piece of pumpernickel bread. She lays the food out on the table, perfectly set for him to enjoy his meal. She waits for him to finish and then cleans everything up and does the dishes. She’s standing by the sink doing dishes as she always did after breakfast and she was in the middle of drying a soup spoon then she suddenly started singing which she didn’t normally do. If she would then she’d at least sing under her breath or humm. But this time she was feeling confident, so she belted out a hymnal , feeling amazing and confident, she tells him that maybe she was good enough to be a singer one day. Just to be interrupted by him saying you are not a good singer, and you will never be a singer. Just shut up and do your work. In that moment , this young 7 year old girl feels her dreams being shattered. Her heart just wanted to break down and cry because she felt so differently. At this moment, she decided that he was most likely correct and she would not sing in front of anyone ever again. Her verbal abuse continued over the years, completely breaking her down and truly damaging something inside of her. Her life would be filled with pain and joy. Men would never take proper care of her so she was unable to feel safe. She would waver through many storms and pain during her young adulthood but always felt safe with her Heavenly Father. She heavily relied on the Lord for strength and wisdom on how to go about her life the best way she was able. She tries to do better with each day , for her and her family.
This was one morning of her 9 years in this home.
My heart 