Broken.

I’m in the dark. I’m so far in the dark I don’t remember what the light looks like. There’s fear and worry around me and no where to go. I’m alone, cold and in so much pain. These wounds just keep re-opening and there’s no one to help me bandage and heal my sores. I’m all alone. It’s so dark. I don’t know which way to go anymore. I want it to all end but if I do there’s no eternity. What do I do. Where do I look. There’s pain and hurt everywhere. My body feels so heavy from all of this pain and worry Im carrying, scared I won’t be enough for you. Scared I made a mistake. Scared you need more and I knew that from the beginning but I was selfish and thought I could do it. But now I’m trapped. Now I’m drowning with no way out. Now I’m buried so far underground I feel I can’t even touch you anymore. I don’t even know who you are. Or who I am. Why did I do this. Why am I like this. I just want all the pain to leave. I’m so tired. I’m just so tired. Please just take it all away. Take me away.