YES OR NO

Parenting is bloody hard. It is the absolute best thing that’s ever happened to me but its bloody hard.

Yes or no. Daughter asks me a question, I say no, she gets upset I tell her to quit it and she goes off to her room upset at me for saying no.

I understand tantrums, but to consistently have this fight with her is so mentally exhausting. I feel like I’m failing her everyday. Today she told me she doesn’t like me anymore, that I’m a bad mom and that shell never be a mom like me. The words coming out of her mouth broke my heart. I want to be the best mom to her but it seems like I just cant get there. Yes, she’s five and doesn’t even quite know what she’s talking about but she’s my baby. She’s the one that use to squeeze my neck so hard before bed not wanting to let go of the best mom in the whole world.

I wanna be better. I want to teach her to be kind and honest and respectful and loving and guanine and selfless. I know there’s only one way to raise her and that’s with my father by my side. God help me today to do better. Not tomorrow but right this second. Help me to listen to her when she’s speaking, help me to teach her right from wrong, help me to show love without judgement to the people around me. Help to me show her that when helping someone else, you don’t need anything in return. and help me to open up my heart and trust so she can too. I know you gifted me with the two most incredible girls for a reason and that reason being good because you are good. So guide me through my day. Don’t leave my side. Remind me to stay calm when she does something wrong. Help me take a breath when things get hard and not get upset with her. Help me to always wake up wanting to do better for my girls and husband. Thank you for giving me this day and help me to do better tomorrow if it is given.