I DO

I’m saying “I DO” in three days to the most incredible man. It’s the most overwhelming yet best time of my life. I feel like i have to do so many things but can’t get my mind straight to even start. I feel excited and nervous to start the rest of my life. Not nervous to marry my fiance, i just hope i can be the best person for him. To encourage and not tear down, to respect, to love and help him as best as i can.

Throughout all of my wedding planning + house renovations + moving, I kept thinking about you, and what you would say. It’s almost my wedding day and I wish you were here Dad. I keep thinking about the moment i’m about to walk down that isle to the man I love and not have you there to let me go. Everyone’s wondering how i’m doing and I say i’m fine but I wish you were here, with all of my heart I wish you could see me and my family take this step together. I wish I could look back and see you sitting there cheering me on. I’m nervous and I wish you were here.

“Hey Dad, I’m getting married in three days to the best man + father to our beautiful daughter, Ezmae. He works hard for his family, he ALWAYS shows up, even when not asked to. He loves me so good. He loves Jesus with all of his heart and he makes me so happy. I love him deeply and cannot wait for him to be my husband. The last year has been pretty hard. I’m trying to do my best but sometimes I just get so tired. I get tired of being a mom, I get tired of being a friend, I get tired of it all. And that’s where he comes in and makes it all okay. He’s my missing piece to this crazy puzzle called life. I love him and I know you would too. I miss you like crazy Dad.”