To all my mommas.

Us moms try our hardest to be the best we can for our children. We carry and take care of them 9 months in our belly and think at the time there is nothing on earth we could ever love more. Then a miracle happens and you can finally hold that precious child. You don’t sleep or shower anymore cause there is no way you can leave your new little baby. /And frankly, that baby just won’t stop crying and you are terrified they’ll die if you leave./ You finally get a small routine going and then baby blues hits And you feel completely useless as a mother and a human being. We get past that eventually (for some anyway) and then it’s good but exhausting. Back to work after those long exhausting months. A little exciting to be back at it but also so so sad because you have to leave the best little human all day. Come home from work, cook dinner, clean up dinner and the house, bath baby, bedtime,bath yourself, kiss the boyfriend/husband, bedtime and repeat. And that’s how it goes for a while. Walking and running comes, then temper tantrums start, unnecessary crying starts, and irritation starts. But at the same time that child is your best tiny friend. //other then mr. hubby// preschool – total freak out for mother, most joy ever for child. Heartbreak. Other social activities, sports, dance etc. And of course you want your child to have everything in the world so you work to barley pay for everything. And that is only a fraction of what. Is to come. —Mothers. Through all of that how is OUR attitude. What is our perception on our life, our job, our family, our past. How does our perfect little child see us. Do they see us blowing up after anything goes wrong? Or yelling when it’s not your baby’s fault? Crying? Angry? Sad? Lonely? Nothings ever good enough? Me for one, opened my eyes to a whole new thing when It hit me. My child will act however I act. And do whatever I do. She studies me, learns everything I do and I mean literally. I wanted to break down so hard. See for me, I used to carry a lot of anger towards men because when I was a young girl I was sexually abused and no one stood up for me or told me that it WAS NOT okay to do that. And so naturally I couldn’t stand any man. I thought they were all in on the same sick ass game. And when I say “used to” I mean up until a couple months ago. I held onto that hate for 16 years. And my child reflected myself onto me and I could see what a terrible example I was being. And I changed it. I was open about why I was uoset to my family and to myself and I LET IT GO. Because it is not my job to hold onto that pain and put my child through that same thing. (Pain I mean) so I changed it. And am still changing it and you know what I fail some days cause MAN KIDS ARE NUTS SOMETIMES But you know what IT IS NEVER TOO LATE. Totally crazy I know but you can actually start over whenever you want. What kind of an example are you setting for your children ladies? If their grumpy it’s probably because your grumpy too. I mean yes some tantrums are just a little crazy coming out of the child on its own but lots of the time it is us. Next time take a long hard look at how you are acting before taking it out on your child. Our job is to love and protect them. Because they are not truly ours. They are our fathers. As are we. We just got chosen to raise one of God’s children because he knew we could do it. Somehow we could. So believe that. You can do this. Doesn’t matter how bad the day, doesn’t matter how exhausting your babes is, doesn’t matter if you have all the support or none of the support. If God gave you a child, you can ABSOLUTELY do it. Don’t take no for an answer. Cause I can tell you who is putting that doubt in your head, and it is not our loving, merciful, gracious God. Can tell you that right now. You are doing great. If today was hard, Tomorrow will be better 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼👏🏼 Go and raise an amazing man or woman. MOMMAS YOU ARE 100% INCREDIBLE.